hmm… just out of the blue i decided to add another entry to this lifeless blog of mine… im beginning to think maybe im just trying to be something im not, im NOT a blogger im an artist/chef(or so i say)/a very well minded person.. not a blogger.. so what the hell is the sense of me doin this? i dont know? guess i just want attention.. haha

DEAR JOURNAL, …. too formal,….
well hmmm let me see, well last night i was doin some “thesis” at my grupm8’s house.. how i wish that was the last time that we will ever do another research study about damn kiosks or related stuff. at this moment in time where i am writing this entry i just wanna sleep, with no more with less than 2-3 hours of rest, i got the urge to write sumtin up.

annoyed and irritated. the two most common status i can say, not to mention bored. i wish i could play HON, But the the installer wont work on my pc. i think there’s some incompatibility issues regarding it.

i woke up at around 10am this morning with the sound of my frend typing on the keyboard… he was browsing our official forums which i am not amused of… due to the fact that not much people participate in those stuff… but i think one major issue about it is because of an obnoxious, insensitive, dirty man that people find very much offensive is running around the forums talking bout topics that he is so “knowledgeable” about being insensitive about others what might say.

i really dont care about that issue but the thing is i dont get it why they dont stand up to say it to him?.. he’s not that of a great guy, infact most people find him dirty, maybe because he’s fat?..
moving on. so then i went home ate my lunch, had a few rounds of dota and went to school.. bored..asda sda asdasdasdasd asd asda dasd asd asda sd d

sometimes i ask my self bakit ba ko nag simula ng blog?… pampalipas oras? maybe.. pang pa sikat? dont need that…, or just an outlet i needed from all the shit thats comming… this past few weeks ive been busy like hell and no time for anything not even my gf… i once had a social, just cant remember when!,

as of this very moment i have streched my keyboard at its longest to be able to reach my lap.. i feel like im using a laptop. the monitor is 2-3 foot away from me and my back feels numb from the long hours ive countlessly sat in front of my computer.

i have no exercise what-so-ever that i feel like ive been putting on some pounds or so… and this cough that i endure even through this very moment staggers me and my lungs. my eyes tired and weary wanting to shut for atleast a moment wherein total darkness will obscure my deepest fantasies. there are times that i open my computer for no good reason, i dont know why

but one thing’s for sure im loving dan browns new book “the lost symbol” i just dont have enough time to read it but its really exciting to read. i envy dan brown for having such an imagination that i would deeply exchange for something that i have… i know deep down inside of me there’s a writer or a director waiting to come out of my deep thinking. an alter ego i wish i could talk to, but i guess i really dont have what it takes to be a writer, eventhough i have a twisted mind for thinking, nahh just get back to reality… im a frustrated chef wanna be, and still a out-of-the leauge programmer who constantly cheats on almost anything that can be found on the net.
i do not pitty myself because i know there’s more to me than this, that i wanna find out.. maybe a robert langdon a presume?

when i opened xidnie.tk just recently i found my counter back to just 5 views?! i wondy why? it was almost 500+ views already.. hmmm must be with the server? ill be re adjusting it again lol haha. just recently ive been gone away from the blogging world for like, uhh i dunno 2-3-4-5 months? i think? i really cant recall but anyway, i got a little bit bored when i finally finished my 2part back to back presentation due date aug 22. well right now im free again (well not actually, there’s another project due date the end of this sem but im not in a rush right now)

OH WELL!, now enough of that crap… for all those time that i was gone, i went through some “mental training” i studied Adobe After Effects for like 2 - 3 weeks to say that i am now an advanced learner in that craft.

Being a CS3 officer pala is such a painstaking task, doing this while doing that, multi tasking this multitasking that, damn! its hard yet its fun to do. last week we had our org fair @ school and it was i guess the 2nd time that our org would join in. there was this activity that the SC conducted, a small contest which , ehem, i, myself and 2 other orgmates of mine won the frist prize.. its fun actually the feeling of winning… love it.. i really dont much have to say maybe next time would be a great time to start again my blogging career, if i do have one ! lmao!